I’ve started Trauma Therapy! At 75! After a month away from home (& offline) I have come to my senses!! Thanks to my grandson triggering me into a major meltdown! I realized then as I sat in quiet tears that anybody else wouldn’t react like I do, and that it is my childhood, that wee gal who is still hurting. And so I made the appointment!
I know my therapist & felt safe as she helps me with my daily life stresses. Now, however, I needed and knew I could go further. And it’s all about the sensations, those feelings that occur so strongly in the now being linked to a long-term memory in my childhood where I felt de-valued, abandoned, etc. After all I was 5 when I was sent away and conceived into an alcoholic fuelled and, I imagine now, dysfunctional family.
So, to go with my psychological health healing I am removing myself from social events and chit chat. Saying NO to friends. Focussing my energies on creating a beautiful garden and majorly following a new diet protocol buying local, organic food regularly. Enjoying my own gentle company.
And already I feel lighter! As I drive or cycle thru the leafy flower filled lanes here in Cornwall I feel safe and secure and happy. It is the right time.
Daria Halprin in her book The Expressive Body in Life, Art and Therapy, explains the 5-part process: https://www.dariahalprin.org/
- Identification
- Confrontation
- Release
- Change
- Growth
I like it! Lots of work to do with Tracy and at home dancing it out.
I am in my final growth spurt!!!
